Tuesday, November 21, 2006

Fingers crossed

It's never a good sign when your doctor takes a look at the ultrasound screen and says, "Oh, boy."

That's what happened to me this morning. I expressed how nervous I am because every single doctor who has examined me has made some comment about my response. It makes me feel like a spectacle. This led to a discussion about OHSS. Back when we had our first IVF consult, he said that most patients have a mild version, but 1% have a more severe form. He's concerned about my chances. He told me what to look for and when to come in for medical attention. He also warned me that there's a chance my transfer will be cancelled, any embryos we have will be frozen, and we'll have a FET instead.

So right now I'm holding out hope that I'll be able to steer clear. I can't even wrap my mind around the idea of cancelling the transfer. I know that if that happens it will be for the best from a medical standpoint, but it will be hard emotionally. So much of this process involves worrying about unknowns.

I did take comfort in the last instruction on my list for the retrieval. "For your comfort, it is advised that you bring a warm pair of socks with you for the procedure." I've got that one covered!


Michelle said...

Oh, I am so sorry. This is not what I was expecting to read today, not after yesterday's good report. No cancel!!! You will be my wish on Mel's wishing stone today. I hear you - you want your doctor to advise you to do what's best and what gives you the best chance of success - but I know you would be really disappointed if you have to wait.

I will be thinking of you and your very cool socks tomorrow. Lots of good, anti-OHSS thoughts.

Hopeful Mother said...

I used my wish for you today too.

Hoping and wishing for no cancellation, a successful and painless retrieval, and lots of great eggs & fertilization...!

thetowncriers said...

Oh no! I thought you were in the clear once the E2 levels went down. Will you know more before the transfer or will you only find out what he wants to do when you arrive for the transfer?

I'm running upstairs to grab the real stone and make a wish for you.

Piccinigirl said...

wishes keep coming...I will check in before we leave to see how it went. I am thinking such good thoughts for you that it HAS to go well.