Tuesday, October 31, 2006

Happy Halloween!

Yes, that's my pumpkin. I decided I wanted to carve one this year and roast the seeds. I like how when the candle flickers it really does seem to wink at you. I felt like such a kid sitting in my kitchen carving last night.

I'm feeling pretty crappy lately. For one thing, the injections are getting harder to do. I don't know if it's normal or even possible to build up scar tissue from only a week of injections, but I'm having a hard time getting the needle to go in. When it does go in, it hurts a lot. I've been alternating sides but that doesn't seem to make a difference. Won't it be fun when I have to do multiple injections each day?

And then the side effects. Here's how they work for me. I wake up after a sleepless night feeling okay. I do the injection. A few hours later I feel like I have a dark fog flowing through my brain. All I want to do is sit on the couch. Absolutely no energy. My energy comes back right as I'm trying to sleep, making my sleep very restless. It's not much fun.

I'm trying to stay positive and focus on good things. It's almost CD1 again and that means we're getting closer to the next phase of our cycle. Once the stims start, I think time is going to fly by. I hope the side effects dissipate, but I'm not holding my breath. We'll see!


Robin said...

What an awesome pumpkin!!! Happy Halloween and maybe icing the area a little first will kind of take the sting away:)

Emmie said...

I found that the pain of the shots would come and go for no reason at all. Some days they would be hard and others I'd barely feel them. Hang in there--you should get a few breaks with some of them.

Awesome pumpkin!

Michelle said...

Your stomach may be sore, but you carve a mean pumpkin! I had aspirations of carving ours and roasting the seeds, which T loves, but instead it's on our porch, completely intact.

But I am sorry that you're feeling crappy. I think that your focus on what's next is a good approach.

Piccinigirl said...

LOVE The carving, it's wonderful!!!

I am so afraid of starting injections (If we'll need to) and you're not making it easier..ha ha ..hang in there, I know it hurts and I have no advice *yet* but I'm here if you want to moan about them, ok? :) Plus take good care of yourself, it will all be worth it. Thinking of ya.

aah0424 said...

I love your pumpkin! I may have to steal that idea for next year.

I am so scared for if/when we have to start injections! I hate needles and had to have blood drawn this weekend. I was sweating bad when it came time for the needle to go in. When it was over I told the Lab Tech how much I hate needles and she said she would never have known. I was glad it didn't come across--I've really been prepping myself for when the day comes. I hope it gets better for you!

Hopeful Mother said...

Awesome pumpkin!

I know what you mean with the shots. At one point, the small needle literally bounced off my left side, and it left a huge bruise. For the next few days we injected only on the right to try to avoid it. I don't think it's technique - just luck.

Hang in there!

serenity said...

Great pumpkin!

About the injections - I found that if I injected very slowly, it hurt MUCH less than if I rushed through it. Maybe icing the area will help too?

The suppression side effects are awful, aren't they? Once I started the stims I felt a LOT more energetic.

Hang in there. *hug*