Monday, August 07, 2006

Introductions are in order!

I've found myself in a place I never thought I'd be - the land of infertility. I always believed my sex-ed teachers in high school when they told us that the only safe sex was no sex. When I became sexually active, I spent each month in agony waiting for my period. And when my husband and I decided it was time to start trying, I thought it would take a few months. Six months at most. Never more than a year. Ha.

It's been sixteen months now and I've never seen anything but stark white pregnancy tests. We recently found out we're dealing with MFI - my husband's urologist bluntly stated we need to think about IVF. Now we're working on finishing up my tests and meeting with an RE to discuss our options.

Dealing with infertility has changed me in many ways. I've learned to be more patient and appreciate the kindness of my friends and family. But I 've also developed this almost primal rage and anger that seems to always be just below the surface. I hope to use this blog as a pressure relief valve for these feelings. I know that reading other infertility blogs really helps me deal with this mess, and I hope that I can return the favor to other people.

Thanks for reading this - I look forward to discussing my thoughts and feelings in the time ahead!

4 comments:

The Town Criers said...

Damn, she posts at 3:10 and the Stirrup Queen hits her by 3:27...

I put you on the blogroll under Male Factor. Welcome to the world of spilling your innermost thoughts publically. And I'm quite honoured to already have a link on your blog! Thank you very much.

Hang in there. Not that they weren't doing their job when they taught sex ed, but it does really blindside you when you're taught to think sex without condom=pregnancy.

Can't wait to read future posts.

aah0424 said...

Welcome to blogging! Sorry the circumstances for your blog aren't the best, but it does help to get the frustrations out.

It must be some sort of wierd Murphy's Law thing because if I hadn't used protection back when I was younger it WOULD have happened.

If you don't mind I'll put a link to your blog from mine!

Looking forward to reading more of your posts!

KE said...

Wow - I never expected comments so quickly! Thanks for adding me to your blogrolls. I spent a lot of time this weekend reading through your archives. I really love the idea of your book! I wish I had found your site sooner.

And thanks, aah0424, for adding me to your blog. I will do the same!

Hopeful Mother said...

"Welcome" - well not really, but you know what I mean!

I hope your journey is a short one. I look forward to reading more of your posts.