Friday, December 08, 2006

It's official

My doctor just called to tell me that I'm pregnant. I didn't realize how hard it would be to type the "p" word. I even went back and deleted it a few times and tried to reword the sentence. It's hard to just let go of my fears and worries about what could happen. It's also hard to accept that what I've wanted for so long might actually be a possibility now. I'm not really a relaxed person when it comes to IF. Right now I'm going to do everything I can to enjoy each day as it comes without worrying too much about the next day. Easier said than done, of course.

I told B on Wednesday night. I handed him the last test and he just looked at me.

"What's this?"
"Two lines."
"But...one is lighter than the other!"

After I explained that a line is a line (it's easy to explain that to someone else, but not so easy to accept) he gave me the sweetest smile. He didn't want to get too excited until the bloodtest came back, but he gave me a lot of smiles that night, some when he thought I wasn't looking. He's one of the most pessimistic people I know, so I know he's even more worried than me. We're going to have to work on the relaxing thing together.

I also told my sister. I promised her back when we started TTC that she would be the second person I told. So when she answered the phone, that's what I said: "I told you you'd be the second person!" She has been such a source of strength and support to me during the whole IF process. I was so happy to give her the news.

Now we have a little time to relish the news before we tell our parents. See, everyone thinks my bloodtest is on Monday. When they switched it to Friday, I didn't tell anyone but B. Our families have done so much for us during IVF. It's been wonderful to turn to them when we're nervous or scared. But this also means that they know the timing of everything. They're waiting for Monday as impatiently as I was. Now that we have the news sooner, we can surprise them. It's not exactly like we planned when we started TTC, but it's something. The plan is to call my parents tomorrow and tell B's Mom when we see her tomorrow for dinner. We always wanted to tell the family who had to hear it over the phone first, and we're sticking with that plan.

I go back on Wednesday for OHSS monitoring. My doctor said there's no signs that the OHSS is coming back, but they want to be vigilant. Maybe I'll even get a sneak peek at what's going on in my uterus. :)

8 comments:

The Town Criers said...

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH! That's a big, happy, excited, you're-pregnant! scream.

Now, if the wish I made comes true, you're also having boy-girl twins. Go go little wish stone.

aah0424 said...

Congratulations!! That is wonderful news!

AnnieP said...

Oh my gosh!!! CONGRATULATIONS!!!!

I'm so happy for you! Are you going back on Monday for another beta? What was your # this time?

*happy dance* !
annie

ps- you give me lots of hope for my ivf in Feb!!!

serenity said...

YAY!!!!

EEEEEEEEEEE you're pregnant!!!!!!

I am SO happy for you, hon - that's GREAT news!!!!

Michelle said...

HOORAY HOORAY HOORAY!!! I am so, so happy for you!! :) :) :) Fingers crossed that the OHSS does not make a comeback ...

Have fun sharing the good news!

Michelle said...

Congrats!!!! I'm so happy for you.

Yes, at this stage I think the "try to relax" assvice does have some merit. Can't wait to hear about everything!

Emmie said...

Okay, I'm not sure why Blogger just outted me, but that comment above (the second Michelle) is from me, Emmie. My maiden name initials were M.E., hence Emmie. Now you know my big dark secret.

Anonymous said...

YEA!!!! (I have been trying to post for days) I am SO FRIGGIN EXCITED for you!!! We were in NYC on Sat and I was thinking of you wondering what the news was...THIS IS FANTASTIC NEWS!!!!!
YIPPEE
Kir :)