Wednesday, December 20, 2006

6 week ultrasound

Today I had another ultrasound and got to see a teeny tiny speck inside the sac:

I thought I saw a little flicker when the doctor was moving the wand around, but he didn't see it. I know it's really early to see anything, but I was still hoping. :) He said everything looks great - my ovaries are almost back to a normal size and it seems the danger of getting OHSS again has passed. I'm going back next week for another ultrasound and if we see the heartbeat, I'll be released to my OBGYN. He told me I'll graduate and shook my hand. I wanted to hug him.

I was feeling pretty good until yesterday - just tired and bloated. I'm embarrassed to admit that I had to buy a pair of maternity jeans. I didn't want to do this, in large part because I'm superstitious, but I had no choice. I'm blaming it on the OHSS bloat that stuck around. I tried on a zillion pairs of pants in a larger size, but they looked ridiculous. I'm also starting to get bouts of nausea. I can't complain, though. I don't think I've ever felt so content. All of this continues to feel like a dream.

It's strange to think that my next ultrasound will fall on the one year anniversary of my FIL's death. I've thought a lot about him during this whole process. I know that he's with us in spirit but I wish he could be here for our good news. After his death there was so much sadness and chaos. It's hard to believe that one year later so many positive things have happened. My FIL was the kind of person who could strike a bargain with anyone and make them feel like they were getting the better deal even if they weren't. We sometimes joke that he's negotiating deals for us even now. It doesn't feel like a joke these days.

I haven't felt like writing or much of anything the last few weeks...I hope that changes soon. Happy holidays to everyone!


Michelle said...

Hooray! Great news about your ultrasound. And I'm right there with you on the bloat and pants dilemma. Though using a rubber band on a few pairs of pants that I can no longer button has been a good temporary fix.

The Town Criers said...

What a great picture :-) I'm so happy for you guys.

I don't think the maternity pants are a bad idea at all. What's the alternative--sweat pants? I wore maternity pants twice during treatments because I was so bloated. It's all that fit and looked okay. A baggy sweater over the jeans and no one could tell about the waistband.

We had a similar loss and it was so sad not to have my husband's grandfather there when the kids were finally conceived. We also looked back at the year and was like, wow (one of my miscarriages fell the day before he died). We came a long way. The kids were born on his birthday and I felt like he was guiding that. He was the type of guy who could finagle anything in real life; I have to believe that if he wanted the kids born on his birthday, he could make it happen too.

And it's special for his wife to have her great-grandchildren share that birthday.

Mel (
Blogger wouldn't let me sign in...

whatthef*ck said...

go embryo go!!

Piccinigirl said...

YEA, YEA, YEA...I am sooooo happy for you. This is just fantastic , wonderful , OMG kind of news. I couldn't be happier for you sweetie.

Good luck with the pants, I have no Assvice but I am sure you'll be ravishing no matter what. :)


The Town Criers said...

Is everything okay, KE? You haven't updated for a while. Let us know how it's going.