Tuesday, September 12, 2006

Dealing with it.

I emailed my SIL yesterday to express my happiness over their good news. I also thanked her for the sensitivity she demonstrated towards us...letting my MIL tell us privately helped so much. Not everyone thinks about how their news impacts those struggling with IF. I feel like she understands that our sadness has nothing to do with our happiness for them. She wrote me back to tell me that she has so much hope for us and a good feeling about the next few months...and that she's excited about the idea of us having kids close to the same age. I really appreciated her encouragement. I am so blessed to have such wonderful inlaws.

I think I've mentioned that I love to knit. I actually dye and sell yarn for a living. I've somehow never managed to make a pair of socks. I started a pair this weekend. My plan is to wear these socks if/when we make it to the IVF stage and I have my retrieval. Knitting is like meditation to me...it's repetitive, calming, and something I can completely control. And did I mention that the name of the colorway is "Crazy Woman"? How appropriate. Maybe I should name one of my own colorways "Bitter Woman" or "Infertile Myrtle" or something along those lines.

We're hanging in there and taking things one day at a time. Our first ultrasound for IUI #2 is on Monday. We're either going moving one step closer to being pregnant or towards IVF...either way, I just want a baby already!


aah0424 said...

Your IL's seem like really sensitive and caring people! You are blessed to have them.

serenity said...
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serenity said...

That was my delete... I went back and read all of your other posts.

First of all, thanks for stopping by my blog! I'll add you to my blogroll.

I am so very sorry that your husband is taking the male factor diagnosis so hard. We have MFI as well - J's counts were about as low as your husband's and we opted to go for IVF with ICSI while he saw a urologist and underwent surgery for a varicocele.

Has your RE recommended that your DH see a urologist? There are reasons why a male's count is low -could be hormonal, could be structural. And there are things that can be done if that's the case. I'd really push to see a specialist.

And the IVF thing - I was really sad when I got the MF diagnosis and knew that IVF was really our only option until we saw if J's counts rebounded. But once we did it, honestly it wasn't that bad. You actually gain some hope.

That's all the assvice I have for you - hope it helps.

In the meantime, I am SO sorry that you are surrounded by pregnant women. I actually just found out recently that my SIL is about to TTC and is worried about getting pregnant before us. And while it's sweet of her and I'm moved, I too am worried about her getting pregnant before us. I would be really jealous.

*sigh* Sorry to turn this into me... but I can definitely empathise. Hugs and love to you... and hang in there. I hope this IUI works, but if it doesn't, remember you have options.

And keep reminding your husband that you love HIM no matter what. I tell J a lot that no number of kids could ever make me happy if he wasn't in my life.

*HUGS to the both of you*